This weekend!

10.4 miles on Saturday....... PRAY!!!!!

(will be blogging more....weight is slowly going down, but got to do better about eating)

More Mental than Physical

If you follow me you know that I am training for a half marathon at the end of April.  Training is going well, but what I am realizing each day that it is more mental than anything. I mean when I think about the distance it causes me to doubt that I can finish. I can comfortably complete 5 miles without passing out (first time I did this I was passed out in my bead for the entire weekend after).

Saturday the group is doing 8 miles....PRAY! I am the only walker in the group it seems like so I am usually the last to finish and that does not bother me, but when I get the mental picture of 8 miles it freaks me out.  What is giving me motivation right now is that I can do 4 miles so if I make it to the halfway point I just have to walk back to my car. 

I have my Ipod charged up, I am taking tomorrow to rest, and I am determined to get 8 miles finished on Saturday!!!!

I am not a failure!!!

This is my goal....to complete the Country Music Half Marathon. Last weekend I attempted to run 6 miles and fell short of 5 miles. Although I am walking more I need to improve my distances.  This weekend although I cannot run with the group I am really going to try to push myself this weekend. We shall see. The group is doing 7 miles on Saturday. My goal is to complete 6 miles and then push myself next week in my individual training.

Last week I kept beating myself down because I was not meeting my goals, but I need to really focus on the fact that I am getting out and moving.  I have to keep telling myself that I am not a failure....it is a marathon, not a race. I will walk and finish the half marathon in April. I will cross the finish line and mark one more thing of my list. 

I just can't let a few setbacks discourage me. I must press on!!!!

Guess What????

I FINALLY stopped being a punk and signed up for half marathon training. I decided on Friday and went to workout with the group on Saturday.....WHOA! All I can say is that I survived. We did 5 miles in the Brentwood area, it was cold, hilly, and windy. But the point is I FINISHED!!!!

Considering they had been training for a month I did not do too bad. There were only a couple of other walkers, but I kept up pace.  Although my body was in pain the rest of the day (and still some today) I made it. 

This is going to be a challenge for me, but it is a great way to get Operation Death of Fat Girl back on track. I had gained some weight since the accident and the holidays because I was not working out as much and not eating right, but in order for me to finish the half marathon in April I am going to have to do both on a consistent basis.

I am walking with Team Rio which is helping raise funds for Big Brothers Big Sisters of Middle Tennessee an organization that I mentor with. If you would like to make a donation to help support the organization and I would be greatly appreciative :-) You can donate here.

I will update you all on my progress! Please pray!!! My two goals are two finish and not passout!

I am an emotional eater (and and update)

I know I have not posted in a while. With having a car accident, holidays, work, and a lot of personal stress I have really not been motivated.  I am working out once or twice a week. My eating is not bad, but not great either....I am going to the doctor today and hopefully he will give me something to help with some of the physical things that have been going on (will explain later).

I came to the realization recently that unless a miracle happens I will not be walking the Music City Half Marathon. I have not given up hope on walking a half marathon while I am 30, but to be ready by April does not look like it is happening.  I am not being pessimistic, but being realistic. I think I will be able to run a 5k in the next few months which I am getting excited about.

I also realize that I eat when I am emotional....and lately this has been happening a lot.  I try to find healthy foods, but sometimes convenient foods are better.  Trying to stop this, but it is a constant struggle. Trying to replace my eating with other things....will see how this goes.

Think I am done for now. Blogging on both sites I am try to do better at. Seems like I blog more when I have a lot going on in my head, we shall see......

I have not disappeared

As you can see I have been avoiding this blog :-(  I attempt to write, but avoid because I know I am not doing what I am supposed to be doing. If you follow my other blog you would know I was in a car accident a few weeks ago and since then working out has been very minimal due to neck and leg injuries.

Well because of this I have gained 5 pounds so I am at 295 (went to the doctor recently).  Not good at all. I am working more on my cardio twister at home and can tell a difference.  I need to get it together if I really want to walk the half marathon in April....I can't lose motivation.

We shall see.

Working Out

I have to get better at posting here.  I am still working out and attempting to eat better.  One set back has been a severe sinus infection and the weather. I love walking and jogging outside, but the weather is changing and it is making me sick :-(.  Plus the other day I guy attempted to set a few businesses in my area (right at the end of my walking route) on fire and he was out and had not been caught....decided not to chance walking that morning.  I am now going to have to step up my indoor workouts in the mornings. Here are my options.

1. I have a few exercise DVDs at home, but honestly they do not motivate me.
2. My apartment has a workout area, but it is not the best. There is one treadmill that works great, but it is usually taken when I go in :-(
3. Could invest again in joining a gym or YMCA, but that is money that I rather not spend right now.
4. My company has a free workout area, but that would mean getting up and being ready to go to work by 5 or 6am and workout before work....not a fan of public showers and lockers.

One thing I did do is invest in a small workout stepper for my apartment that I can do at home.  Wish I could fit a treadmill in my apartment....but then I would have no space. So I recently purchased a Cardio Twister.

This machine can fit in the corner in my bedroom, I can watch tv while I work out and I will have no excuse for not getting up and doing something, because it is right in my room.  It should be delivered today and I hope I can put it together correctly.  We shall see how this goes.

Oh...weight is going down a little, weighed in yesterday and I was at 288, I need to step it up.